BoMbAy bOmBeD

I spent most of my time over the last two days glued to the television set, watchin the chaos left behind by the militant attacks in Mumbai. As I write this, I can vividly recall the horrific details sketched out by the TV channels and newspapers. Tears welled down my eyes as the accounts of deaths of brothers and sisters of my country and across the world , the innocent civilians and the special forces, were brought into light. I felt somthin heavy deep down, a loss as if somthin my own had been forcibly taken, as the newsreaders expounded on the acts of bravery put up by India's heroes, the NSG commandos, and in the process lost their lives. A bright, young and promisin major was one among them. There was this other man, supposedly a legend in his own right, the chief of the Anti Terrorism Squad. It was saddenin to see the wreck of a place left behind by the terrorists, the human element only addin to the anguish and despair. I was thinkin of the amount of pressure they would've gone through minutes before their deaths. I mean, its like you know you're gonna die now n it's a point of no return...Is this the end of everythin ?? Did I live my life to be gunned down by mindless maniacs into the bottomless pit called death ?? Did I treat evryone fair n just ?? Did I enjoy my last meal ?? When was the last time I said "I love you, mom n dad" ?? Will I get a chance to say goodbye to the ppl I love ?? Did I say thanx to God fr givin me all tat I wanted ?? Can I tell my folks back at home, "Don't worry...Everythin will be ok"?? When was the last time I enjoyed the simple pleasures of my life ?? Would they have thought about this as their their final moments on Earth ticked away ?? Or would it have been like bang...poof !!! One second n its the end !!! I saw their pictures on TV n I thought they exuded determination n guts...It sort of depressed me. I was struck by a pang of grief n sadness. They had so much to hope for n live n go on...The end need nt have been so cruel. My prayers fr them n their families. I know that I cannot do anythin to bring them back or give their loved ones a moment of reief or happiness. The pains will never ease...the tears can never caese...nt fr now...farewell...

Wil it ever be the same, I ask myself
Oh yes, the things are done
They hav com n gone
Leavin behind darkness n despair
There's no escape, while the shadows r here
U don't say no to them, they seldom listen
Engulfed in bleakness n mindless torment
N blinded in rage n fury that will burn fr eternity
Will everythin b all right, I ask myself
Let the rains wash my tears away
Into puddles of sorrows that were once mine
Though they can scarce extinguish the fires within
The burnin rage that flares n fumes
Rekindlin the wounds carved out in excruciatin torment
When the clouds hush in darkness
N the winds bear mournful premonitions
They look down upon the lonely traveler
Bearin the brunt of a trouble too many
Steps measured in pain n etched in anguish
Tracin tearful alleys on green Earth
Cloaked in the stains of pain n agony
Banished into a world of nightmares n distress
Will it ever end, I ask myself..

Go figure !!!

It's been a while since I wrote anything productive, my recent tests in college included. Oh, they are one whole bunch of trashy n worthless mishaps as far as I'm concerned. In fact, so is the damn course. Whateveh !!! I'm not about to discuss something as boring, mundane n sloppy as coll !!! On the other hand, though, I probably might not ferret out the kind of nitty-gritty a "buddin" computer science engineer is supposed to..or for that matter the infernal techno crap or freaky gizmo stuff a large proportion of people in this existing money-motivated, mindless n abhorrent world we live in today, would wanna write abt...Nope, not at all. I wouldn't dream of penning down loathsome accounts of that sort. By the way I'm not a journalist either. I've absolutely no intentions to talk about about the current state of affairs in all of this world or the number of gold, silver n bronze scoop ups won by a bunch of sportsmen(& women) in this big thing called Olympics happenin somwher in some tiny corner of the world, or for that matter the blahs of daily life for the common man or the woes of the blessed peace-keepers on planet Earth..Nah !!! Methinks that's not what I wanna write about. I'm mighty sure there are enough scientists out there to discover n publicize what they've discovered n write jumbo articles on all the unveiled secrets n wonders of God's creation. Should I delve into that realm ? Nay, says I !!! I haven't the foggiest of what's goin on in big black space, something cosmologists speculate n study about, nor the vast seas and oceans and rocky plains of the Earth, an arena geologists and oceanographers brainstorm over. Leave it to 'em researchers, cries my brain. The stupefyin aspects of the beginnings of life and it's end, the principles n protocols that govern rewards n comeuppances to mankind, the overpowerin emotions we succumb to, the grippin events that change the course of history, seem to b jus not-my-type rantings to indulge into...What then do I talk abt ??? My neurons seem to b screamin of ideas to envision. My senses seem to belch the remains of all the thoughts I've subdued these past years. Phew !! All I'm left with is a sincere n heart-warmin thanx to u for havin been patient enough to read this apparently meaningless crap that's evrythin abt nothin...oops...or was it nothin abt evrythin...Watevah !!!